Where o where has my brain gone?

I miss my brain.

I’ve been sick my entire life, but there were quite a few years where I was not “THIS” sick…and I was smart, and funny, and I thought about things. Now? I’ve spent the majority of my waking hours today staring at the wall; I’ve been sitting here for an hour trying to write something worthwhile and I simply can’t. So instead I tried to read, yeah right!

Today I feel worse than usual, which is saying something. It’s probably the IV antibiotics I started last week catching up with me, or maybe the fact that I’ve had a particularly long and stressful week, maybe that’s catching up with me. I’m lacking sleep since I spent 2 nights this week in the emergency room, I’m stressed because my doctor keeps blowing off my concerns and the fact that I keep ending up in the ER, I’m angry about that too. I also probably did way too much housework all at once last night. Whatever the reason, my body and mind have both crashed, and it sucks.

I recently went back to school, which is awesome, but it’s made me realize just how bad my brain is now. I have realized that I don’t remember much of anything. Of course I can remember dates, conversations, when my doctors appointment is, etc. but I cannot for the life of me remember what I read 5 minutes ago or what the professor said yesterday in class. Thank goodness I take awesome notes…a learned skill I’m sure, since this issue has been getting worse and worse over the last 8 years.

 


 

So I wrote this 2 1/2 hours ago, yet never posted it because I’ve been sitting here staring at nothing like a zombie. Where has my brain gone?

 

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7 responses to “Where o where has my brain gone?

  1. A rough week on top of rough years. Hopefully the new treatment will help.

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  2. Hi Addie Marie 😀 I’ve looked everywhere. It’s not here ! I even looked under the settee in case the cats patted it under there. No ! Your brain is not here. Can you remember when you last used it ? It may be there …… or in Lost Property 😉 Ralph xox ❤

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  3. I know EXACTLY where you are at right now.
    Brain Fog is the worst symptom – so debilitating and it robs you of who you are. I know for me it gets worse after I’ve pushed myself, especially after being exhausted by sensory overload – things like watching the TV when the volume is too loud or the camera moves too fast.
    Know that you’re not alone, and that this really sucks.

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  4. And how’s that for synchronicity!!!
    Trisha has just written (ranted) about her brain fog and adrenal gland issues. Have a read as her naturopath has given her some herbs that I have not hear of, but they sound like it’s worth checking them out!!!
    http://trishapearson.wordpress.com/2014/10/17/the-brain-fog-busting-plan/

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    • What a coincidence! I have tried some of those things, and had luck with some and not others. I notice great improvment in my brain fog with huge doses of methylfolate, but no help from b12. I am on an rx for my adrenals and dont notice any difference. The rhodiola has been on my list to try for a while, maybe ill order some with my next supplement order. I am certain my adrenal glands are shot, but i hadnt attributed the brain fog to them. Ive been extra stressed this week, maybe thats why my brain seems worse lately.

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  5. Stress is such a factor!

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